As a soldier’s girlfriend, it’s too difficult for a impatient person to wait for a two minute conversation on call, just to listen his voice, just wait for so many months or years to see him and to listen his giggles.
Now days, We both are depend on letters and we both waiting for it to receive them as soon as possible. Whenever I recieved one, I noticed and watch carefully , when he was in rush and didn’t get time to write it better and the ink went fade and he waited to post it but every single night he open it to read again and again and thing ” I want to write more for her” to make her relax, happy and bubbly. He may be imagined that whenever I recieved his letters I jump like a child and try to find out peace corner where I read these words with full of love and feel his pain not to wish me on my birthday, not to give me so many good night kisses, not to wake me up through kisses. I can feel his regret not to take a glimpse of me but still love me unconditionally and insanely but I know his first love his country and then I came on 2nd place. His letters make so deep in love and touch me as if he sit besides me and wrap me in his brave arms near his chest where I can see his scars who made him more handsome and dextrous. One by one I kissed them and he knows what my kisses is all about, he knows i’m deeply madly in love with his scars who made him courageous. I bent my head on his chest to rest my eyes who is tired not to see him properly and weeping, my eyes want that rest on his arms because I know I’m in a protection layer and when he saw me like that he make his arms more tighter around me and then start reading all these letters words for me. He is a bad singer though but he mesmerized me by his voice when he sang only for me in a moonlight. He read all those flirty lines for me and in my closed eyes I smiled insanely. After some time when I’m not able to listen to him, I open my eyes and saw no one was there but his and mine feelings are. I just sat quitely and weep harder in a silence. On the same moment, I remember his perfect song lines, who he used to flirt with me. I realised he is the best flirt singer in this world because in the crying moment too I’m starting laughing and smile insanely. I feel as if he tickle me through his words.
I used to read his letters so many times in a day. They all are my morning wishes and Night wishes too. I can feel his ” sleep-well” kisses and ” wake-up ” my girl kisses. He always being so supportive for me. Whenever I need him I know he is always there for me. Being a soldier he is not able to be with me but his constant letters make me good decision maker. He said ” I never told you to do that or do that but will tell you that Catherine I’m always with you and whatever you take as your decision I’m always With you forever”.
May be this forever make both of us last but I know he never ever broke his promise as I know he is a soldier and he will always stick around me. His letters constantly told me that I’m the strongest person and I shouldn’t saw myself down. He used to say,” Catherine you are a warrior, fight for yourself and work on yourself , always chase your dreams and madness.”
All these letters make me strongest person. I weep harder but never lose my self and will always get back with my swords. I’m the soldier’s girlfriend, I should be like this for sake both of us or to make him happy.
To wait for his letter make me more patience full person and the stronger too.
We both fought daily for our feelings and that’s make us a warrior and made me a soldier’s girlfriend.
And I again kept those letters in the box..
Today, is the amazing day I guess. Rain also have some attitude towards Earth may be this once upon a time this earth make sky heart break and that’s the main reason why today i saw this rain from my window.
I understand why this sky have revenge fu attitude towards Earth because this heart break have no healing solutions and as a human I know it very well if you face heart broke you can’t get enough healing.
Infact, you start behaving like detective or in a “doubt” state everytime. You doubt on being in love, to saw a rain, on your lover, on parents infact on your dog too. Because you didn’t get the exact answer why people like you or love you. Do you have any magic in your eyes where your boyfriend find some rest or he just wants that all kisses and sex for free.
I do doubt on everyone in every second. Sometimes feel when I get that answer why people like or love me.
And when I get that answer I definitely try that “kiss in a rain” thing for sure with that person.
All night I just have thoughts about my soldier and now it’s a morning, and morning become afternoon, on late evening I felt that I miss him so much but we don’t love each other we just like each other companies. I told him not to complicate our lives and live life fully like a friend’s but he didn’t listen to me, he want to be in a relationship with me so as ofcourse I said yes.
But I couldn’t help myself to being miss by me. I hope he miss me too there and have some thoughts about me.
On 26th june 2017, he said he likes me. He said so many things to me that his words make me confused. And asked me why he likes me. So I asked him the same question with same attitude. He didn’t said a word I felt it’s just a liking so thats fine. This not a new thing for a girl to get new proposal on every single day. But this guy is my friend. We are friends from college. We met not so often. Infact we rarely know each other. I think he likes the feeling of being in love. But his words are so convincing that I have to say yes to his proposal.
So, on the same moment when he say he wants to be with me he don’t love me yet but he likes me alot. And I reply him immediately that yes that’s true on my side as well. I like you but I don’t have any feelings for you but your words are so convincing like I have to say yes for relationship.
All day long and spend my night in thinking why I’m not able to feel “love”. I was in a love I know how it feels so where that magic love feeling gone. Some of my friends said Catherine just give yourself sometime and be with him may be he’ll help you to find out that feeling.
We mutually decide to went on date. We eat, drink and then dance like never before. I enjoyed so much with him. He give me wings to fly. He said so simply” Catherine I want to set your way to fly out, just be happy and live your life fully”
And after exact one day he is going. He’s going because soldier have so many responsibilities to complete. I stand behind him he hugs me and said I miss you.
But still I can’t feel love but I can feel how my heart feeling something missing..
I’ll stand behind him and he’s just vanish from my road but not my destiny. I’ll wait for him and know he come back soon.
I’ll be waiting here and standing with tears feeling when he came back with the lost feeling of my love.
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I just completed fifty shades trilogy. I never thought that I touched by the every word of this amazing trilogy. I step in into new world where i feel i’m so alone may be like christian grey. I’m so thankful towards E.L JAMES she gives us fantastic fiction which i guess every reader who are too attached towards reading and love are love these books a lot like me.
somewhere today I love bright sun which are not that much hot towards earth. i feel new leaf in a old tree today. A good hope and refresh mind make me more happy and on the other hand a little bit sad because now i love fantasy more than reality. May be many readers saw fifty shades trilogy a “a porn fantasy” but for many these trilogy is full of drama love and affection.
Today, i just sit on my terrace and watching that beautiful sky who are steer clear and who have different shapes of silver linings. with lots of people over coffee i fantasy being like a Ana with my Christian.
Like Ana and Christian relationship every girl wants the same affection and attention from the guy who loved her a lot. But somewhere these trilogy makes you feel alone with the different fantasy of world and you’ll love that feeling a lot.
Thanks heaven for E.L JAMES trilogy..