A Letter


As a soldier’s girlfriend, it’s too difficult for an impatient person to wait for a two-minute conversation on call, just to listen to his voice, just wait for so many months or years to see him and to listen to his giggles.

Nowadays, We both depend on letters and we both waiting for it to receive them as soon as possible. Whenever I received one, I noticed and watch carefully , when he was in rush and didn’t get time to write it better and the ink went fade and he waited to post it but every single night he opens it to read again and again and think ” I want to write more for her” to make her relax, happy and bubbly. He may be imagined that whenever I received his letters I jump like a child and try to find out peace corner where I read these words with full of love and feel his pain not to wish me on my birthday, not to give me so many goodnight kisses, not to wake me up through kisses. I can feel his regret not to take a glimpse of me but still love me unconditionally and insanely but I know his first love his country and then I came on 2nd place. His letters make so deep in love and touch me as if he sits beside me and wrap me in his brave arms near his chest where I can see his scars who made him more handsome and dextrous. One by one I kissed them and he knows what my kisses are all about, he knows I’m deeply madly in love with his scars who made him courageous. I bent my head over his chest to rest my eyes who is tired not to see him properly and weeping, my eyes want that rest on his arms because I know I’m in a protection layer and when he saw me like that he makes his arms  tighter around me and then start reading all these letters words for me. He is a bad singer though but he mesmerized me by his voice when he sang only for me in a moonlight.  He read all those flirty lines for me and in my closed eyes I smiled insanely. After some time when I’m not able to listen to him, I open my eyes and saw no one was there but his and mine feelings are. I just sat quietly and weep harder in a silence. On the same moment, I remember his perfect song lines, who he used to flirt with me. I realised he is the best flirt singer in this world because in the crying moment too I’m starting laughing and smile insanely. I feel as if he tickles me through his words. 

I used to read his letters so many times in a day. They all are my morning wishes and Night wishes too. I can feel his ” sleep-well” kisses and ” wake-up ” my girl kisses. He always being so supportive of me. Whenever I need him I know he is always there for me. Being a soldier he is not able to be with me but his constant letters make me good decision maker. He said, ” I never told you to do that or do that but will tell you that Catherine I’m always with you and whatever you take as your decision I’m always with you forever”. 

Maybe this forever make both of us last but I know he never ever broke his promise as I know he is a soldier and he will always stick with me. His letters constantly told me that I’m the strongest person and I shouldn’t saw myself down. He used to say,” Catherine you are a warrior, fight for yourself and work on yourself, always chase your dreams and madness.” 

All these letters make me strongest person. I weep harder but never lose my self and will always get back with my swords. I’m the soldier’s girlfriend, I should be like this for the sake both of us or to make him happy.

To wait for his letter make me more patience full person and the stronger too.

We both fought daily for our feelings and that makes us a warrior and made me a soldier’s girlfriend. 

And I again kept those letters in the box.



I just completed fifty shades trilogy. I never thought that I touched by every word of this amazing trilogy. I step in into new world where I feel I’m so alone may be like Christian Grey. I’m so thankful towards E.L JAMES she gives us fantastic fiction which I guess every reader who is too attached towards reading and love loves these books a lot like me.

somewhere today I love bright sun which is not that much hot towards earth. I feel new leaf in an old tree today. A good hope and refresh mind make me happier and on the other hand a little bit sad because now I love fantasy more than reality. Maybe many readers saw fifty shades trilogy an “a porn fantasy”  but for many, these trilogy is full of drama love and affection.

Today, I just sit on my terrace and watching that beautiful sky who are steer clear and who have different shapes of silver linings. with lots of people over coffee, i fantasy being like  Ana with my Christian.

Like Ana and Christian relationship every girl wants the same affection and attention from the guy who loved her a lot. But somewhere these trilogy makes you feel alone with the different fantasy of world and you’ll love that feeling a lot.

Thank heaven for E.L JAMES trilogy.